indianapolis boudoir photography | cheryl's boudoir blog | finding yourself again
We recently had one of our brides and long time clients Cheryl come in for a follow up Rogue: Blush session. She did one previously before her wedding, but wanted to reach out after a very hard 2020 (like we all had) and we had a thought: She wasn’t alone.
So many of us dealt with loss in 2020. Canceled events, weddings, birthday parties, trips, loved ones lost, friendships put on hold, social distancing, illness, quarantines and on and on.
Cheryl was that person we all wanted and needed to be so badly. Someone who took every punch 2020 had to throw at her, but got up and decided to be a better person for herself.
We all have things we want to be better about and we all have loss from 2020 we are carrying with us, how will you find yourself again?
2020 was the year the world stopped. For me, 2020 was the year my whole world was shattered.
February 10, 2020 my brother took his own life. March 27, 2020 I lost my father to COVID.
In a matter of six weeks I lost two people who had such a major impact on my life. When the world shut down I was forced to be at home, and could not see family or friends to help me grieve. Thankfully I have my husband and my daughter who pulled me through it. I felt broken and destroyed. I need to take back my life
You mentioned wanting to take back your life, can you elaborate on what you did? Diet, exercise?
Taking my life back is more than just my physical body. It’s my overall well-being and healthy. Physically I focused on becoming a healthier me. Part of it I have to admit was stress/grieving of 2020. Most of it was simply cutting out junk food in my life. I ate a lot of junk working in the office but we do not keep that type of food in our home.
Mentally I was focused on being a better human being. While yes I was grieving such tragic losses, I knew I had to grow and become better from all of this.
What helped you find your happiness again?
I often see people say that happiness is a choice. You wake up every day and make the decision to be happy. I only partially agree to that statement. I think it’s a trend statement, a hashtag if you will. You can make the decision when you wake up in the morning to be in a better mood, but happiness is deeper than that. I was waking up most mornings telling myself, trying to convince myself that today was going to be a better day, but I was still so unhappy. I cried myself to sleep at night for six months straight. I had to fight to get my life back.
Compare your two Blush sessions with us; first was for him, but this was for you, why?
My first blush session was a gift to my husband. I was nine months post-partum and going through a variety of emotions. Mentally I was still trying to figure out life after baby. Physically I was extremely overweight and all around unhealthy. I did not adjust well to becoming a new mom, balancing work, and planning a wedding. It took a toll on me in a variety of ways. Losing weight was a challenge for me so I also was not happy with the way I looked. I avoided mirrors at all costs.
This session was different in so many ways. It’s not just about losing the weight, but becoming who I truly am meant to be. This is a new beginning for me. A new journey. I wanted to be able to show that. I decided to do a Blush session with Rogue Images again because it was the perfect time to capture those feelings. Feeling more like myself after having a baby 2 years ago and all of the pain I’ve gone through.
How do you first connect with Rogue Images and what keeps you coming back?
I first met Cody at a wedding event. It was an instant connection! I knew right then and there he would be perfect for our wedding. I hired him before I even had a wedding venue! Since then I think I’ve had five or six different shoots with them. They know my family and we have a level of trust.
The first blush session I did, I was extremely nervous. I didn’t know what to expect, but I instantly felt at ease. The most recent session I felt like a supermodel. I was ready for anything and knew exactly what I was getting. This will not be my last session. I plan on doing these blush sessions again, but mainly just for me. To be able to look back and see my confidence grow despite the size I am is something I’d love to do. The bonus is my husband gets sexy pictures of his wife!